Possible Womxn 2/12 Brianna- Lost over 150 lbs
“It’s our choice to feel the way we want to about our bodies.”-Bri
From the moment Bri emailed me about becoming a part of this project, I knew she was going to be one of my ladies from the moment I read her story. The way she positively spoke about her body, overcoming her fears and wanting to show other womxn how to do the same. I was like, girl get your ass ready because I need you to be a part of this.
Brianna used to be much larger and has been ‘overweight’ her entire life. Growing up she lived a very conservative and very confusing life. She wasn’t attracted to men and was told she should be all while she was trying to find herself and figure out what she wanted in life and who she wanted. She was a teenager when she started to look at herself differently. Years later, Brianna has managed to lose an insane amount of weight, 150 pounds roughly and just recently found herself. She’s gay and she also loves God. She up and moved from her home town which was just setting her back and decided to start anew in Seattle. She has been here for roughly 2 years now and says it’s been the best decision she has made for herself. Growing up in the location she did, it was limiting for her to explore herself and her sexuality. Since living in Seattle, Bri mentions that she has just been blessed with so many opportunities, friends, careers and even lovers. Hell yeah! Welcome to the PNW my girl, for the most part we’re pretty accepting up here.
I asked her how she felt when she initially entered the studio and she said the first thing that went through her head was, “On no, there’s nowhere for me to change in here!” Then she quickly realized why does it even matter, she was about to get naked anyways! I asked how she felt after her session to which she said,
“I felt like it was normal. I felt like my body is okay.”-Bri
She related this experience of getting her photos taken to this one time when someone asked her if she was interested in womxn or not. Bri responded with a ‘maybe’ and the person followed with “Okay- cool!” Now, for most of you, you might think just an, okay-cool, response is weird. But for Brianna, an okay-cool was the nicest and least judgmental thing she could of said back to Bri. This person made her feel it was okay to share her sexual orientation preference and made her feel whatever her preference was, was okay. To relate that experience, which can be difficult being a gay womxn who was raised in a christian church, to how I made her feel in her skin and bones, is something truly special. To not instantly pass judgement on someone is how we should all be. It’s why I started this project and it’s why I wanted Brianna to be a part of this. We can pass judgement all we want but at the end of the day all that matters is the love we carry for ourselves and our body.
“As women we’re conditioned to hide ourselves, to be sorry, to want to be better, to have to be working to be something different and to look a certain way.” -Bri
“I can talk to my prettiest, thinnest friend about her body and she will still share her struggles with her own body.”- Bri
We are all in the same boat and we are all just trying to learn how to love our bodies one day at a time.
“It’s damaging the boxes we put ourselves in.”-Bri