Possible womxn 9/12 Val – Big Breast’s, like very large ladies
If I had a book full of 300 empty pages I probably could easily fill it with how much I love and adore Val. Not only has she been a huge part of this project, she has also become such a dear friend of mine. After traveling to Burning Man and back with her, I feel so lucky to have had this soul enter into my life to share some incredible experiences with. She is a fearless, strong, funny, hardworking, bold sun goddess and I kind of like to think that her large breasts sort of symbolize her in a way, larger than life. Her ego is so beautiful and she just radiates love and light every time I see her. Val has never let things in her life hold her back, not even her large breasts. So many times she’s thought of getting a breast reduction, taking away all the physical pain and unwanted attention, but then she remembers that she was made fiercely and if god or her mama or whoever blessed her with a chest, she was going to accept it and not change herself one damn bit which she has chosen to do. Learning to love to your body will always be a journey and learning to accept some things that you can’t change is all apart of that journey. I love this womxn and what she stands for and am so honored to share her story with you all!
“This session was just another thing along my path helping to push me outside of my comfort zone which is what I need.” – Val
Like many of the ladies for this project or anyone who does boudoir in general, Val mentioned she was incredibly nervous before the session. She ordered a few props that had yet to make it to her apartment which kind of set her back a little on what she was planning to wear. All that fear and worry about her outfits and the packages not coming in made her realize that she needed to just let go of her expectation of what she thought this session was going to be and just let it happen because that’s how you’re going to get the best experience, if you just let go. So she showed up, with still more props then I’ve seen anyone bring and just let the entire experience happen to her.
“The quickest growth comes from getting out of your comfort zone.” – Val
“I knew I had boobs but I didn’t really notice until freshman year because I was wearing a button down shirt and some guy made a comment to me and that was the first time that had happened.” – Val
From the moment Val entered high school, Val was not just Val anymore but was Val who has large breasts. From comments she would get from grown men as she walked home from school, or to comments her peers would say directly to her, everyone around her had something to say about her body from the moment she turned fourteen. Val quickly learned to tune out the comments and cat calling from men, or the weird remarks her male friends would say to her at school. What got on Val’s nerves the most were not the comments from boys, but comments from the girls. Once high school hit all she would hear from her female friends were remarks like, “Damn girl, why don’t you share with us.” or “I wish I had your boobs!” or “How did you get so lucky”. Little did they know that if Val could have ripped them off her chest and handed them over, she would.
What’s more annoying than comments from all genders about Val’s breasts is the fact that she can not fit or wear anything that she wants.
“Oh spaghetti straps? Not happening. Tube tops? Nope, can’t do it because it’ll look weird with my bra showing.” – Val
Even if she could find a spaghetti strap and that is more like a lasagna strap or a tube top that somehow didn’t show her bra or even came with a built in bra, she wouldn’t wear it anyways because it would just attract even more attention to her. Even if her perfect fit was out there, she still wouldn’t be able to wear it.
“All those people were forcing their comments on me and then forcing other people around them to notice me so everyone had a say about my body.” -Val
When others have a say about your body, that’s when something is wrong. It doesn’t matter if the comment you think you’re saying is good, or if it’s bad, the comments just have to stop. For someone like Val, her entire young adult life she was subjected to what other people thought about her body. She was taught unconsciously by others to shrink herself, to not be seen, to not be 100% Val because that was too much. Other people defined how she felt about herself and her body and there was nothing she could do about it at the time. Our young teenage lives are susceptible to listening to body shame. She didn’t have the tools she has today to combat those comments and to look inward and know that she is beautiful and perfect just the way she is. She was stuck in her own head, filled with words from other people.
Val always being subjected to comments about her appearance never really ended, it still happens today. She thinks back on a time when she was a child in elementary school and was told from the teacher that she was ‘too much’ and is convinced that is where her introversion stems from. Val was talking to some kids near her telling them a story and her teacher silenced her telling her to be quiet and stated that no one cared and that she was just too much. Hearing the words ‘too much’ is something Val has been told a time or two in her life. She always thought that she was too much because others kept telling her she was. If her personality wasn’t too much, her boobs were, or her butt was or her hair was.
“That was the constant message I got so I tried to hide and not be seen because I wanted to just live my life and not have to deal constantly with comments from others.” -Val